I'm feeling depressed again today. This qualifies me as being officially in a funk. It was kind of cold and rainy this morning, maybe that's it.

Some of it probably stems from not being able to make lunch plans with any of my friends. Doesn't anyone go to lunch between 12-1 anymore. Of course, I often work out during lunch (and I didn't bring my lunch to work today either).

This isn't something I'm going to let get to me personally. It just feels like whenever I'm trying to reach out to people, no one is available. Maybe I'm just choosing the wrong times.

I will go do some yoga after work and maybe go swmimming. This will, I hope, make me feel better.

I don't know if it's just indigestion or if I just feel lousy. I've been feeling bad a lot lately. I don't know if it's just the infamous Austin allergy season or depressive malaise. I went to yoga during lunchtime and thought that I would come out all refreshed. Now I just feel kind of down.

Of course, I just did get an e-mail from Mom saying that she wanted to come down and see my movie. And of course, Dad wants to come too. Most children would want this situation to happen. For son of divorced parents I just see stress largely being carried by me. That's a whole lot of parents to have in town for the weekend. Then again, I would absolve myself of some potential guilt visits this summer.

As you can see I have very mixed emotions about visiting my parents. Usually I visit them more out of guilt than really wanting to see them. Considering that 60% of my therapy involves my childhood living with them.

I realize that I spend way much time worrying about things in my life. I think that so much of this stems from a lack of security earlier on in life couple with a lack of self-esteem.

I'm also stressing some at work for no reason... The Germany project that I've been working on has finally been "solved" by my managers. Of course, the last time they did intervene, it did help to a small degree.

I think I'm going for a nature walk. This blog isn't helping either.